So, yeah hey guys, its been awhile since I've written an actual journal about life and stuff.
Don't worry and don't panic about this one; I don't want a pity party.
My life has been quite turbulent this past year and a half, and my mental health has suffered greatly...
I've struggled with depression since I was 11 years old, and it's had it's highs and lows, but I was also able to
distract myself from it (most of the time) whether it was through work or drawing...however, that's not working anymore, at least not like it used to.
I've run out of coping mechanisms for the mental and physical pain, and I've come to realize I have
ignored this problem for far too long. It's been screwing up my life, and I am just now realizing the substantial amount
of damage it has caused. I can't get a good nights sleep, some days I hardly eat (food has been making me nauseous),
my emotions are in a constant state of flux (sometimes I don't feel anything), my relationships with people are crumbling
(I've also become incredibly isolated), many days I wake up and feel as if I have been hit by a train, getting myself out of bed has become difficult some days,
my schoolwork is suffering, I can't focus...I'm...tired...so...tired...of always feeling like this...
For the first time in my life I am actually having to seek professional help...it's really bad.
Part of it is my own damn fault for being too scared to reach out sooner, but I am now.
Needless to say, I may not be very active here for awhile. I still plan on making the comic because its one of the few positive things in
my life right now.
Ladies and gentlemen, if there is one thing
to take away from this journal it is, DON'T WAIT TO GET HELP
.Don't wait until a mental health issue has become so destructive that it becomes difficult to function as a human being.Please. Or if you know someone who is struggling with depression, help them. The more depression is ignored the worse it gets.
Anyway, I guess this is how my life is right now...
Love you guys.